From The Inside Out - Hillsong United

A thousand times I've failed

Still Your mercy remains

Should I stumble again

I caught in Your grace

Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades

Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else

My purpose remains

The art of losing myself

In bringing You praise

Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades

Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame

My heart and my soul I give You control

Consume me from the inside out Lord

Let justice and praise become my embrace

To love You from the inside out

Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades

Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame

And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise

From the inside out Lord my sould cries out

Happy New Year!

Welcome Year 2010! It's a new beginning of another year. I assume that my church back in Ampang had ended their New Year's watchnight a while ago. Ah.. I do miss RCKL.
Church Camp was a blessing from God. If it's not for Him, I don't think I could be attending this Camp at all!
I feel so like a new person in Christ. He had gave me new confidence in myself, which I was really lacking because I was only relying on my own strength. God is an awesome God, He knew what I was lacking and He restored it throughout this camp. And I know, through God, I can do all things!! Glory to God.
May I hold on to what I'd purpose in my heart and to serve Him and Him alone with all that I am. Amen.

YAds Mission Trip

November 28 2009, I joined a mission trip to a Myanmar Refugee Camp organised by my church's Young Adults (YAds) ministry..

All the children are in front, YAds tean are at the back.

We gave them some treats as Christmas gifts


Ben is teaching d teens how to shake a tin. Hahaha. It's actually workshop time where Ben and Iggy taught them to make some noise ;)

And here's Iggy looking exactly like a tutor

And they all 'bang' together

The girls sang a Burmese song for us

The rest sang along

The youngest performing a song they learned from their workshop

A slightly older group dancing and singing another song from workshop

And another group with another song

Then lastly, the teens from my workshop making some noise

Final shot

It was overall a really memorable day.. I wish I could be more involve in church activities. I miss being active in church...

What too much study will do to a person

This happened a couple of days ago, a girl went crazy and decided to apply what she learned...

Elephantitis



Brain tumour

Absess on the head

Haemorrhoid

^^

Waliao..!

Siao! Posting until 20th of Feb..!! No CNY leave lo. No birthday leave also T.T

I'm just being irrelevant

There are so many times where I wish that I'm not the one mentioned or invovled..

But this time, how I wish that I am the one in relation to.

Why can't I be chosen? and why not?

Worst December yet to come...

Too much work, too little time.. December's coming and my work load is piling up. One month's posting and I'm suppose to get supervision and perform all the procedures that I'd learn this semester and also satisfy them with my skills. Argh!! So many procedures!! Here's the list:

Serving medications

Perform Simple Dressing

Injection - On 3 different sites: Intramuscular, Subcutaneous and Intradermal

Nasogastric tube insertion

Catheterization

Last Office

etc.

In one month??!! Please be serious..

Gone are all the enjoyments for year-end holidays....

Cell Group in PJ

I attended my 3rd cell group in PJ tonight. My 1st time was with a younger group, while my 2nd and 3rd are with an older group (most of the members are working young adults).

Back in Ampang, we are used to call cell groups as HOME group (Home Open for Ministry and Evangelism). So, my way of differentiating my PJ group and Ampang group is by calling PJ's group as Cell group while Ampang's group is HOME group.
Other than that, my HOME group (HG) in Ampang consist of younger folks. I'm the oldest in that group of mine. Even older than my HG leader. Hehehe...
I used to be the assistant leader of my HG and I'm quite talkative back there. I would safely say that my HG reduce in 50% of noise pollution after my absence. :P

Being a newbie and considered being young in my new cell group (CG) is a whole new experience. Being in a CG, I'm reminded very much of my own HG back in Ampang: noisy, happening in some ways, poking fun at people and chatting about nothing at all. I do miss those moments with my old bunch but being in a new cell is quite an experience as well:

I get to be the quiet one for once.

Hahaha... Not just that la, I get to experience being someone new in a new environment; I get to mix with an older group; and I get to know new people from different backgrounds.

I love my new CG, hopefully I will open up to the members soon enough. There are some of them that I really love being around with ^^

I just LOVE comedies!

I went for movie with a few friends yesterday evening. The movie was a blast for us. I enjoyed it the most. Why? One of my friend said that the whole cinema was filled with my roars of laugther. I'll say it could have been worst if there weren't strangers around. Hahaha..

I loved the movie but animation being animation, d plot can't go anywhere far from d norm..

Introducing Flint, the inventor and his trusted assistant, Steve, the monkey.

[Flint actually invented a monkey thought translator (it's the machine on Steve's chest)

So, Steve actually 'talks' in d movie, a word at a time.]

Flint's taste of success comes in the rain of Hamburgers!

[Flint invented a food maker that transform water molecules into real food. Due to some accident, his machine flew into d sky and it started to rain food.]

Then, there's d Eiffel Sandwich, ...

.. Jellybean Rainbow...

..and Ice cream snow.

Soon, things went out of control..

[ Flint's machine's 1st sign of malfunctioning was oversized food. ]

..And turned into a disaster..[Italian a-la storm]

The food just came pouring out from the food dam.[food-alanche]

At the end, the hero saved the day and the end ;)

Now, for my favourite part of d movie *drums*

Hahaha... Seriously, I cannot help loving how they patch this movie up.

This is Baby Brent:

He's a star since he was a baby. Lost his sense of belonging when Flint became famous. He decided to fly together with Flint's group (the machine remained in the sky after the accident) to destroy the food machine for one purpose:

He believes he would find his purpose in life when he flies up there.

Well.. To cut d story short, he did found his *choke* purpose in life after being swallow whole by a headless man-size roasted chicken. He didn't die but he took over d chicken's body *pfft* I couldn't get a pic but just imagine a roasted chicken wit the head of Brent (from the pic above). Yup, a human head with chicken wings for hands.. Let's quote what he said when he tooked over the chicken's roasted body:

"I'm no more Baby Brent!! *looking triumphant* I'm Chicken Brent!"

"Chicken" Brent actually tore off his diapers when he said that.. I was laughing so loud when I watch that scene ;p

After that he was forced to jump off from the mutated killer food machine and tried to fly with his roasted wings. He FLAPPED his roasted chicken wings!! I could have been rolling on the floor with laughter if I wasn't sitting on the chair.

My next favourite scene is Steve's fighting scene. Little Steve here is really fond of Gummi Bears. The pic above is Steve's expression when he saw 3 or 4 Gummi Bears tearing off the wing of the flying 'car' that it is in. Those Gummis were all an inch taller than Steve but Steve took all of them off. Eating them in the process. Hahaha.. Cruel yet cute ;)

I think I got carried away with this post. Hehe.. Go Chicken!!

On Block once again

I'm back to studies once again. Meaning that I would not have to work for a whole month. Sounds cool but it's not... Sigh.. I just can't imagine what type of fury from the tutors is awaiting me once the tomorrow comes. I'm sure we're going to suffer from tonnes of lecturing, not all of us but I'm one of those who will "get it".
Life here is getting worse by the days. How I envy those who are having normal college life: no curfews, no complusory attendance, no posting. Most of all, they can join any church events whenever they want. I really lost my freedom.
Anyway, I thank God for my optimism. Hahaha.. At least I'm learning to make time for God. Learning to seek God on my own, without any push from the back. I'm all on my own. I plan of taking leave so that I may join youth camp this year end. I'm sure I'll have the time of my life ;)
May God continue to stay by my side. That's more than enough for me.
You know, I'm really glad to have Jesus as my Saviour and friend. All glory to God!

What if something... happens?

A grave mistake happened today. I can't explain everything in detail (you should know why). I can only write that someone did a mistake and the other was in terrible pain after that. I had never seen a rational person becoming so restless and so ... I'm out of words to explain his expression. He was definately in extreme pain. Turning and moving on his bed just to find a position that he won't be in pain anymore. He never found one...

It made me mad when I realized that his pain could have been avoided..

My anger was directed at the unknown person that made the mistake... But all I can do is just let my superiors handle the situation.

That person (whoever it is) shouldn't have made the mistake. Yet, there's no such thing as being perfect in everything you do, no matter how experience you are.

I realize that I may be the one who might make the same mistake one day. How much pain I could cause someone in my care...

It makes me kinda worried of what would happen in my future carreer.."what IF something happens?"

How long would the less fortunate have to wait?

It was my off day yesterday and I went back home (to Ampang, that is). After I settled myself at home, I went out to get some groceries to bring back to my hostel. I finished my shopping and waited for a bus at the bus stop. During my wait, a blind Malay couple walked over and I moved aside so that they won't bump into me. They stopped just between me and 2 Malay mid-age ladies. I observed them and wondered to myself whether or not both of them are really blind. The wife was but I wasn't so sure about the husband as he is constantly 'looking' over to his wife who was behind him on his right side. Then I decided that they are both blind when I noticed that the wife was holding on to the husband's right shoulder.
I finally saw my bus coming from afar and was ready to board my bus. Then, I looked at the couple again, wishing that someone would talk to them. Though not 100% sure that the husband is blind but a girl finally mustered the courage and asked the husband who was closer to her whether he's waiting for a bus. He 'looked' at her and said they're wanted a taxi. Yup, their both unable to see, I thought to myself. Then, the girl straight away hold on to his left hand and told him to follow her. Cutting the story short, the couple got their taxi and headed home. I didn't missed my bus though, I sure those who takes public buses knows how long a bus will wait at some stations.
I wondered... If the girl had let her dignity won and left the couple as they are, how long would they have to wait before someone else comes up to them? I kinda pity them.. We 'normal' people just have to wait for a public transport to arrive but they have to wait for someone who would come up to them and who is willing enough to wait for their transport as well. How long would they have to wait? If only we would let God's love take over us in these situations, life would have been much easier for the less fortunate, right?

I Never Thought That I'll Be Leaving For Good

So I'm back in d hospital once again. Time had just passed so silently yet so quickly.. Now, I'm sort of living away from home and church(RCKL). I didn't expected this at all, I would say, before I came into college, I thought that I could go back at LEAST once a week but-- that was just my thought.. During my posting in the Assunat, I seldom go back, twice a week or so but church-- nope,I'm on duty on Sundays (Thank God that there are churches in PJ that I can attend no matter how flexible my schedule is). I definately miss RCKL.. I really never imagined myself leaving RCKL ever and *whamp* I can be away for months at a time.

My tutor once said: "When I first join this college (yes, she's my senior. I think about 10 years my senior), I never thought that I was leaving home for good but I was..."
...That's how all of us here feels...

Other than that, my friends are flying off to further their studies overseas- one by one they're flying off. Some took off without me realizing because I'm away..

This is really the age where I realized that I'm on my own, those around me will never always be there. They have their own path to take and so do I. I chose my path and left them first and now it's their turn, one by one. Day by day, my time with them are nearing the end of the thread. I feel so-- vulnerable. It's like nothing in this world is permanent. Everyone have their own ways and future... All I can silently hope for is that I can once again enjoy everyone's company together with God once we rejoin Him in Heaven one day.

I am changing everyday over here, I wonder how will the rest of them be like when we meet again..? I miss all of those I'm away from that I know and had known, some I'd known for so long and some that I'd known for a short period but had shared grat memories (Form 5, 6 and YES ^^).. I really miss the time we spent together!

A Prayer behind my curtains

Dear Father,
I had to admit that I find myself drifting off course from You now and then.It all started ever since I came into college. It's getting more often recently though. I just don't understand why can't I find time to spend doing devotion, meeting you in the privacy of my corner in my room. I feel like I'm living a hypocritical life. Cos when I'm alone-- I feel like I'm living a different life...
I know that I'm walking in a path that You had plan, this I'm more than 100% sure. But there's just this emptiness that thrist for more. I want more of You in my life. I want to experience a Spirit-filled life every day and night. From sunrise to sunrise, I want to FEEL You. I'm greedy for more of You, Lord... It's just not enough the way it is, I STILL want more and more and more-- for eternity, til the end of times...

Amen.

Update

Last week of the new batch's orientation. I'm officially uninvolved with them from now on. But studies' getting tougher. Tutors are forcing us to do revision before class.. (We get sent out of class if we cannot answer her questions in the beginning of class T.T)
What more? My annual leave is being postponed.... I can't join the YAD's outing. Really disappointing..........................................................
Ok, I'm sulking. Haiz, have to live with it. All the best from God to me!

On the way to Stress

So many stuff to handle..! Due to our memory lost of what we've learned in Sem 1, our tutor wants us to do presentations of specific topics.. Then she warned us to make sure we present tomorrow. Walau, one day's time for preparations?? Haiz.. We should have prepared ourselves better before class starts. Then, this wouldn't have happened.
Orientation is still to come. Complains to handle. I need to sleep..

A new intake in college

So, today is the 1st day my juniors enter this college. I'm one of their orientators...
Well, today's orientation was-- something new. It's like I got to see myself in their places when I was orientated this January. And being a senior, WOW..!
There's more to come! I'm just too exhausted to blog any more..

Annual Leave Confirmed!!

I'll be enjoying my Annual Leave from 30th August to 5th September ^^
Finally, another week to enjoy once again. See what plans can I make for that period..

The Subjects I'm Taking

I wanna blog about the subjects I'm taking and had taken:

1st Sem:
We studied a normal body's anatomy and physiology, which covered the structures and functions every organ and (I think) every cell. Basically it's about how a normal body function and what is it made up of.
Then there's the Principles and Practices of Nursing, which is about practical stuff to do in the hospital. This sem only covered a small part of it-- bed-making, cleaning patients, collecting specimens, admission, *bla, bla, bla..*.
We also learned psychology for nurses, a part of it are about the mental state of sick, dying people, children and old folks. Another part is about human memory and human needs. I didn't really like this subject.
Another subject is Environment and Nutrition. The subject title says it all ;)
We had English and Communication classes as well.

Now, my 2nd Sem:
1. Anatomy and Physiology once again but as far as I know, this time we're going into the complicating details of hormones, defensive system and diseases (of course not as detail as specialists la).
2. Infection and Inflammation. Can you believe that? Going into all the details of the causes of infections and inflammations? Defense sytem once again..
3. Fluids, Electrolites and Burns. We will learn about how to treat burns and the complications of burns and the different types of it. For electrolites, it's something about the acid-alkaline balance and the charged ions stuff. As for fluids, it's body fluids.
4. Microbiology and Parasitology. Which is about microorganism (eg: virus and bacteria) and parasites.
5. Pharmacology. All about medicines..
6. Principle and Practices of Nursing II. Further complicating procedures to learn la.
Then, we're doing English again.

Wah.. a lot right?

Walau!

I really dun expect Sem II to be so stressful so soon...!! Ahh~~ So straining. Two assignments done followed by another pending and another to be confirmed. Then there's just so much information to sqeeze into the tiny cavity of my mind.. T.T

*Blank*

I'm still getting ready the songlist for this Sunday's Powerkids worship.. I'm so out of inspiration..!! *O God, please give me the wisdom and whatever that's necessary to meet up with this worship. I CAN'T do this without You.*

I've been away from chuch for quite some time dy... Before last week, it's been 2 months that I'd never seen the kids in church dy. I really think I should start investing on the lastest children's worship album...

So blessed

Here I am facing a new semester, my 2nd semester for my nursing course. It's interesting to know that I'm actually so and so a good learner (Haha.. Not that good but not bad either). I could catch up easily when I put on an effort and I don't seem to fall much. I managed to score a fair result for my 1st Sem (Didn't expected to be so blessed.. ^^). Many other things happened and was taken on and overcomed in the Name of the Lord.. Amidst everything, I can see that God is there.. All glory to God!!

How can I live without Him?? Just last week, I decided to double my offering (on my 1st Sunday in RCKL after 2 months), and *pop* I was blessed my a new pair of jeans (that I'd been needing to but for the past few months) AND 2 watches (which I really, really really love) from my mom. You see, after taking my couse, it's unusual that I go shop with my mom and I had never let her pay for my "groceries". It so happened that I didn't have my money with me when my mom brought me shopping. I didn't considered it as God's blessing right away. The fact of my offering strucked me after when I was admiring my new watches. Then, I realized that all these are directly from God, through my mother.. What a Father! ^^ To give His daughter gifts on Fathers' Day..!! I love Him so..

~Give thanks to the Lord,
For His love endures forever~

I miss RCKL!!

So it's been almost 2 months that I'd been posted to the hospital. And most of all, it's gonna end on the 20th of June. I'll be a Sem 2 student on the 21st (^.^) time really flies.

I'd been attending Glad Tidings PJ for 2 weeks now. I'd joined one of their Cell Groups. I had this kinda weird feeling when I attended Cell yesterday night. It's like everything is reminding me of the times I had with those from Revival Centre.. At 1st it was like my normal HOME group, where everyone's "late". Then everyone just chit chat and drags the time. After that, having icebreaker. To make my flashback worst, the icebreaker was 'Taboo', way too much memories from just a normal game of Taboo. I accidentally smiled to myself when I recalled Kam Fwei's style of playing the game. Hahaha...! I tried covered the smile with a cough la ;p

I miss ya all from RCKL..! Can't wait to be back. If God's willing, I'll be attending church on the 21st. So till then, I'll wait for the time to come when I'll meet the Revivalites once again. Lovez!!

My absents from church

Well, some might already know that I'm working in the hospital on shifts. But some dun seems to know that I'm working on Sundays as well. I'm just too tired to message anyone informing about my circumtance. This post is sort of an explaination of my absents in church.

I'm working on Sundays. For the past 2 Sundays, I'd been working morning shifts, so i dun even have a choice to rush back to Ampang for church.. Though i wanted it badly.. You all won't know HOW MUCH I missed RCKL. The Catholic Church I'm attending over here is totally a different place to be. Maybe cos I don't understand their rituals and practices in service. It's interesting yet -- maybe it's just culture shock. Anyway, I still believe that we're worshipping the same God. That's what that matters most!

It's great to be able to be in God's House every Sunday. It's more tiring than anyone can imagine, to go to work and skip my rest just to make it for church. But (to every Christians out there!) it's more than worth it. ;)

Tonnes of thanks and appreciations to those who cared enough to ask me of my absents in church! Love ya all!!

Back Again

I'm back in hostel. A week's leave passed so quickly. But then again, continue working in the hospital will be worth looking forward to ;) I hope I'll be learning fast.

Yesterdays

I went out with my mom yesterday, I was left to stay in the car while she went into the shopping centre to get some sweet potatoes. This a is place where I had always spent time with my family since I was very young.

Then I noticed the empty rental lot (of the shopping centre) right in front of me. It was empty other than a box and chair. It used to be rented by A&W. What stunned me was that this used to be a place where I loved since I was young. Those were the time spent with my whole family: myself, my bro, my mom and my dad, all 4 of us...

I knew that the business for that A&W wasn't going well but it stayed til now. Come to think of it, it has been there since I was in Primary. My dad loves the A&W rootbeer while I love the curly fries (I still think they're the best ^^). We had always eaten there when I was younger. I can't help feeling some emotion seeing what's left of the place I'd used to spend so much time in.

Exam: was, is and is to be

So far I've overcome 3 exam subjects. Still got Psychology, Anatomy & Physiology, Environment & Nutrition and Principle & Practices. Hahaha.. Sounds like a lot more. Need to buck up real hard. But I'm feeling relieve lately, maybe because God's peace is with me (thanks Melia ^^).

Ending of the Beginning

I went for my last Ward duty with supervision today. *Means, from now on I'm on my own when I'm on duty* I dunno if I'm supppose to be happy or worried, haha.. but it's a journey. ^^

Interviewed a few patients today (still new, so not much to do). There's an old uncle that really impressed me with his knowledge from history to science. Really 'Geng' oh! When talking to him, it's like he's teaching me about medic instead of me giving advice. He's real cool!

Then there's this Ah Ma (grandma) that's very quite but very helpful. She's been warded for 1 month lo. Finally, i got to know that she's going home today. ^.^ when i happily told her the news, she was taking it like a joke (she's been here too long ma) and she din believe me.. But later i manage to convince her to believe it lah. Hehehe.. I'm so happy that she's happy.

1st Day once again

Today I had my 1st day working full hours. There's still a lot of different stuff that I'll need to catch up with.

I also (for my 1st time) took an Apex beat reading on a patient today.

Trip To Water Treatment Plant

The internet connection in college is still not improving..

Our last test is drawing nearer, and i just had a trial run onn practical nursing skills this morning. Tiring but it's a relieve to know that i CAN do it ^^

We had a trip last Saturday to a water treament plant in Selangor. Here are some pics:

In the bus at the beginning of the Trip

Few of us in the bus

A little briefing

Group photo at the end

Daily Thoughts

Friday, 3 of April

Sometimes i just pause, flashing on the fact that I'm pursuing a nursing course. It just makes me wonder whether i can achieve my goal and become a nurse; whether i can stand firm in God after all these; wonder what's God's plan behind all that I'm doing right now?



Faith. God had thought me too much of it for me to push it aside.. I just feel like I'm constantly falling in love with Him over and over again. He never leaves nor forsakes.



I may sound like I'm drifting on smooth waters but it's really the opposite. I'd never been been shaken the way I am since I was a Christian. Yet, God had really molded me, built me and made me firm in Him. I'm really grateful that He is such a merciful God... So wonderful that no matter what I do, what I say or what I can't do, He's always there for me in opened arms.

I’ll be heading for an environmental trip to Puncak Niaga tomorrow. So many things are happening to me in SUCH a short time…

Long Way Ahead

Things are getting tougher to handle. Test 3's coming and it's the major exam for this sem. Can't believe how fast time flies..

Holding on tight to my goal to graduate, i will rise! ^^

Brother back from NS

My brother is back from National Service!! I’m so, so glad!! He came back last Wednesday, 11th of March. I got him a comic book as a welcome home present ^^

He looks the same like he left, just that he got darker, hair’s shorter and I think he grew taller as well. He said he gained weight and my mother gave me the exact amount of weight he gained: 1kg (-.-“)

No matter what, I really missed him and I’m so happy that he’s back. Maybe will buy something home when I go home this weekend for each of my family members. Secret recipe, perhaps?

4th Day of SCE: Nagging and Patience

haiz.. accidentally deleted my previous posts. Looks like I cannot do anything about it so here goes my next post:

Today's my 4th day of my Supervised Clinical Experience.

We did practised on each other (the blood pressure, pulse and breathing rate) just that when it comes to the real thing-- it's just different..

*Patience, patience, patience..*

Updates of 7-8 and 10-11 March

Wi-Fi malfunction.. That’s what you get from living in hostel. So, here are the updates for the last few days:


7th March, Saturday
It’s Mason and Stephanie’s wedding day. I had been teasing Mason when will he be getting married about 2 or 3 times and had also told him to invite me if he does. Haha..

So, I was invited! I was so happy for Mason and Steph. But much to my disappointed, I realized that the wedding is at the same time as my class. The wedding’s at 10.30am and my class is from 8am until 12.30pm. Cis..

I planned my time to rush to the wedding. I got some of my clothes send back to my mom yesterday when I met her after cell group so that I won’t have to bring luggage to the wedding (please don’t imagine how I would had look -.-”). I managed to get my dad to send me straight to church after class. Other than that, I’d also packed the stuff to bring home and brought it to class so I can make a fast getaway.

Everything went as planned. Thanks be to God!! ;) Though I was extremely late for the wedding, I still managed to bump into the newlyweds and congratulate them. They looked their best! What else can I say?! It’s their special day ^^

Once again, congrates and may God’s best be to Mason and Stephanie!

8th March, Sunday
Back in hostel again, came back and found my room-mate (only 1 didn’t went back) ill. I guess that it’s God plan that I will have to take care of her. God bless her.

Aiks, still got 3 assignments to rush and 1 of them is due on Tuesday, the other 2 on next Wednesday. And guess what? Test 2’s on Tuesday as well.. *Blank*

10th March, Tuesday
Well, I can’t say I did well for my test but neither will I fail. But then again, I don’t believe in the application of examination results (especially) in the field of nursing. Even if I get 100% for each and every subjects, doesn’t mean that I can deliver the best nursing care right?? So why not take it easy? Not to say that you should not study at all but not the stressed out type of study where some people skip the whole night’s rest to study la. Your body needs a break or it’ll break literally.

11th March, Wednesday
Our results came out quite fast. I scored 14/20 on “Nutrition and Environment”. I sort of expected it to be around 15 so I’m not too disappointed. Actually I did a few silly mistakes, could have done better but forget it. What’s done is done.

Kinda been thinking of relationships lately. Well.. I looked unto God in prayer about it for quite some time. Finally, He asked me:
“Are you ready to settle down and spend the rest the rest of your life in a relationship...?”


*drums* that’s the question everyone should think of before getting involve in a relationship.


Many people skip it and jump without thinking at all. That’s not the way, I guess, because emotional hurts are the hardest to heal and jumping in just like that (especially just for the sake of having a bf or a gf) will cause more complications in the future. I’d been in one and I regretted on not thinking deep enough but there are some lessons (easy AND hard) that you can only learn from jumping in. Then again, if you are not strong enough, my advice is not to jump in without considering the depth and current of the water. (For the Christians: You don’t want to end up far away from God, right?)

I guess I’m not ready to settle down yet. If it is God’s Will for me, I’m sure He’ll make a way ;)
Or maybe, just maybe, there might be someone better in the future?