Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Praise Him!

Stucked in this deep pit, dark and lonely.. I cried out to God hoping for a way out.

I waited and waited.. Hanging onto the last bits of strength that I have.

Just when I thought that I'll have to struggle out of this pit with or WITHOUT God's help. He came to me, the bits of strength that He gave me turned and grew into an unimaginable power.

I found myself praising Him and being so grateful to Him..

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Jesus knows

Last week was a great week where God lead me through as if He was by my side. I praise Him for that, really.

This week on the other hand, is really a week of stress and depression whereby my standing with God is really put into the test.

I wonder, Lord. What is it that I can possibly get from this survival type of testing? Am I that strong that I can pull through all these? I'm so pressed down that I can hardly breathe.

Today I cried out to You again and again. My heart tore and crumbled by the pressure that I am facing. My mind keeps repeating: 'I want more of You, God. Help me!'

At the midst of all I'm in now, my ears hears this faint wispers from You: "It's not about you but it's about Me, the Lord of all, Creator of the Heavens and earth, the ruler of Kingdoms & the Prince of Peace."

Monday, May 10, 2010

God will carry me through

Feeling like a trash... Like a piece of tissue being thrown away after 1 use.

I don't mind doing favours for people once in a while but college is really putting too much pressure on me.

I can handle pressure but this is too much for me. It's just not me to face all these in one go.

People turn to me (sometimes) for help but when I look around, I find myself alone. There's just no physical being by my side that will help me through my situation.

I can only turn to God but I really wish for a friend, just one true friend that will be there for me; whom I can rely on.

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I'm 22 yrs old this year. Starting to feel so old. Seeing people around me getting hooked and tying the knot really makes me feel "left-out".

I want to experience the feeling of being secure, being able to be cared for. I'm so tired of caring for others, putting up to everything that comes my way, swallowing everything on my own.

I want to have a relationship where I can be that important person to that someone who will be my important person.

But all in all, my God had sustained me and carried my burdens all these years. I'm surviving but am still praying... ;)