I had to admit that I find myself drifting off course from You now and then.It all started ever since I came into college. It's getting more often recently though. I just don't understand why can't I find time to spend doing devotion, meeting you in the privacy of my corner in my room. I feel like I'm living a hypocritical life. Cos when I'm alone-- I feel like I'm living a different life...
I know that I'm walking in a path that You had plan, this I'm more than 100% sure. But there's just this emptiness that thrist for more. I want more of You in my life. I want to experience a Spirit-filled life every day and night. From sunrise to sunrise, I want to FEEL You. I'm greedy for more of You, Lord... It's just not enough the way it is, I STILL want more and more and more-- for eternity, til the end of times...
Amen.
Somehow i sense the desire for God is a gift from Him. People can be so hot for God one moment and then drop off like ripe durians from the tree. Right from his youth, King David had this desire for God as seen from his psalms. He was called the man who was after the God's heart. I guess it was the closeness with God that kept his Godly zeal till his death. Same goes for Moses who told the Lord, "unless Your presence go with me, I will not go" when he was told to take the people into strange places. My prayer is that God continues to pour this desire into our hearts for more of Him. Dear, all this comes with a price. The price to trust Him even when the going is tough. The trust that will say with Job, "even if He slays me, I will still praise Him" when he was at the lowest point of his life. Feelings can be very deceptive. So sometimes they have to be replaced by faith and willingness to press on for Him...
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