Living for the living

I was thinking of Joash just now and the more I do, the more I felt restless.
I never knew that losing someone close would pain a person for so long. It seems like the pain could never reduce, it has only been attacking less frequently.
Then I looked onto God in prayer. Praying to get an answer or just a bit of peace to calm down.

This is what God told me: "Do not think of those that had passed away. Instead, think of those that are still living."

So true are God's answer when one earnestly seeks Him. I pray that I WILL be able to live for the living.. Amen.

Glorious Day (Living He loved me) - Casting Crowns

verse 1:
One day when Heaven was filled with His praises
One day when sin was as black as could be
Jesus came forth to be born of a virgin
Dwelt among men, my example is He
Word became flesh and the light shined among us
His glory revealed

chorus:
Living, He loved me
Dying, He saved me
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Rising, He justified freely forever
One day He’s coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day

verse 2:
One day they led Him up Calvary’s mountain
One day they nailed Him to die on a tree
Suffering anguish, despised and rejected
Bearing our sins, my Redeemer is He
Hands that healed nations, stretched out on a tree
And took the nails for me

verse 3:
One day the grave could conceal Him no longer
One day the stone rolled away from the door
Then He arose, over death He had conquered
Now He’s ascended, my Lord evermore
Death could not hold Him, the grave could not keep Him
From rising again

bridge:
One day the trumpet will sound for His coming
One day the skies with His glories will shine
Wonderful day, my Beloved One, bringing
My Savior, Jesus, is mine

A wonderful song of how our Saviour came and rose again, bringing us a chance to be apart of the Glorious Day, when He returns again.
By living, He showed how He loved us
By deciding to die, He washed us clean and gave us new lives
Buried, He carried my sins far away
Then He came back alive, proving that we will live with Him forever
One day He’s coming
Oh glorious day, oh glorious day..

My life in hostel

My hostel is located behind Assunta Hospital and I'm on the 9th floor.

A view from my level: evening sun

Hostel cat; a distraction from the stress of studies ^^

I was supposed to be studying ;p

My classroom:

My hostel under the moonlight

my room is on d highest floor, 2nd from right

Always Enough - Casting Crowns

In the dry and weary land
Lord, You are the rain
In the sea of shattered ones
Your love comes rushing in

You hold the world within Your hands
and see each tears that falls
Through every fire and every storm
You're always enough, always enough

Your love is peace to the broken
Faith for the widow
Hope for the orphan
Strength for the weak

Your love is the anthem of nations
Rings out through the ages
And You're always enough for me

You keep my heart in perfect peace
My life is in Your hands
When confusion hides my way
You're always enough, always enough

Your love is peace to the broken
Faith for the widow
Hope for the orphan
Strength for the weak

Your love is the anthem of nations
Rings out through the ages
And You're always enough

I rejoice for my Savior reigns
I rejoice that He lives in me
God on high, He has set me free
Worthy is the Lord

I rejoice for my Savior reigns
I rejoice that He lives in me
God on high, He has set me free

Worthy is the Lord

In the dry and weary land
Lord, You are the rain...

"You will be my strength through the ages, O Lord. I find peace in You. You are always enough. I'm so grateful to have You knowing me.." :)

remember that I cared

I don't understand what am I feeling right now..

Is it stress from my exam?
The piling procedures?
Misunderstanding between my friends?
The death of a friend?
Lack of sleep?
or..
An unrequited love?

I feel like a bird being caught by a barbed fence. As I struggle in attempts to escape, I find myself getting more tangled up within the fence. The sharp ended barbs piercing and injuring me mercilessly. I cry out for help but I find my friends caught in their own barbed fence. There's just no one there to save me.

As I lay trapped, left with so little strength that I can hardly breathe. I realize the main reason that I caught myself in this fence.

Memories of him just keep flooding my mind. I knew I was never good enough for him but I never thought to lose him in this way; to know that he loves another in this sort of manner..

I love you, I really did. I blame myself for not being initiative enough to approach you the time I realized my feelings for you. Instead of encouraging you to fall for me, I drew myself away from you. Deep down in my heart, I selfishly think that you belong to me. Naive, I was so naive.

I had never met a guy like you, never had I experience so much care and attention (perhaps?) from such a gentleman. I'll smile whenever I recall the time we went out, the time we spent together. You really took care of me. For the first time, someone actually looked back and search for me when I'm lost in a crowd. Then you stayed so closed to me as if afraid that I'll get lost in the crowd again.

But you are someone else's man now. I'll just have to accept the fact.

The fact that I'd lose you forever. No matter how much my heart regrets and cry, you'll never be by my side ever again.

Goodbye, God bless and remember that I cared...