17th

Exactly 5 months has passed without me realizing it. It is on a 17th that we left and it is also on a 17th that I met your brother that so much resembles you.

Today had been a great experience for me. Both in God's favor and in faith that I lead my day. God is great.

Literally every step made today was first made by God.

Today is the first time I played a guitar in public. Also the first time I led worship while playing an instrument. The first time I saw Joash's family, relatives and friends. The first time I felt God's eagerness to move through me.

Our God, Christ Jesus is real and I lived to witness that. All glory to God....

Treasure today ;)

Complacency. We seldom use this word yet we practice it ever so often. For example, we grow complacent with the neighborhood we live in; we grow complacent with the service we get; we grow complacent with the services we provide; most of all, we grow complacent with our family and close friends.

Family and close friends are those that'll stand by you. Often times, they stand so close that we forgot that they're always there. Thus, we take them for granted.

How many times had I done so, taking my family and friends for granted. Not bothering to spend more time just to keep in touch. The common mistake that I do is abuse online social network. I don't want to regret my actions after I lose them forever...

Just a reminder to all plus myself:

Life is really fragile. You won't know who'll live to survive tomorrow.
Treasure today or regret tomorrow...

Gah.. How I wish that he's able to update his 'blank page' again...

Seed

I was day-dreaming and I thought of my future... Missionary, although I don't know which sort, but I'm very sure I'm going to get involve in one someday.

Then I remembered of those that had shared the same dreams that I have. We shared and we talked. We even decided that we may meet in BCM someday! How I miss those times.

But friends come and go. Nothing last forever...

This dream of being a missionary of Christ, seeded in my heart. It hasn't grown much. My fault I guess. I'm just too uncertain of what's ahead that I just want to give up without even letting this seed break open.

Though my life has changed from the day I shared my dreams with you but the same seed remains. I'll just have to be brave enough to let it die first.

Once this seed dies, new leaves will appear. My story has just began...

"Hurt people hurt people; loved people love people"

Pastor had always said : "Hurt people hurt people."
Confused? It means that people who were hurt will always hurt other people.

It's very true. Behind every hateful things a person does, lies a greater hurt in their hearts.
Many of us choose to repay an eye for an eye. Since you hurt me, I'll hurt you in return to get even.
This situation sounds so familiar to too many people... I'll bet everyone on earth had encounter this sort of situation.

But I hate this. I hate a world where people hate each other.
You're hurt inside, so what? What's the point of hurting the people close to you? Then the people whom you'd hurt will turn around and hurt someone else. There goes the never ending circle of hate..... Sigh..

What hurt people needs is love.
"What's the point of loving someone who hates you, who don't know how to return or appreciate my love?!" You might ask.
Then let me ask you this: "How is someone who grew up in hatred can ever learn how to love when no one had ever showed them how good love can be??"

"Loved people love people"....

Love is what makes a life worthwhile

Imagine this:

You had been working on a group project for 2weeks straight, less play and less sleep.
Then one of your group member just come up from nowhere,
flip through your 'sweat and blood' and said
"Useless!"

Lets add some spices to the story...

(Scenario A)

You burned with anger and disappointment that your project was not well appreciated.
You sulked and excuse yourself to get a drink.
When you came back to the group, you unintentionally overheard their conversation
"This is total crap!"
"I wonder did he/she even put any effort.."
"Total disappointment le! I seriously cannot believe lo"

(Scenario B)

You burned with anger and disappointment that your project was not well appreciated.
You sulked and excuse yourself to get a drink.
As you went to get your drink, one of your group member caught up with you.
He/she said
"I can see that the portion that you prepared was very well done. But it wasn't what we wanted.
We are actually focusing on a different point of view towards the topic.
Maybe you could have done it *blah blah blah*. Keep it up! :)"
When you came back to the group, you unintentionally overheard their conversation
"This is total crap!"
"I wonder did he/she even put any effort.."
"Total disappointment le! I seriously cannot believe lo"

Now, think again. What will you feel in both scenario?
*Honestly, I will definitely dislike my group members for criticizing me so badly. :P*

In Scenario A, I would have given up on my project if my semester results doesn't depend on it. I would have given up on my members as well.

As for Scenario B, that one member that came after me is the key person that will pull me through this situation. After all, it's my fault that I did the wrong project.

If only there are more key person like that all around. Someone who actually sees your value. They see the 360 degree of you, not just your mistakes and failures but also sees you as a human being with feelings.
Don't judge a book by its cover, they say. But how many people dislike others just because they do not like what they see??
Can there be more love around? Would YOU share this love around?

A beloved friend and brother once quoted this:

Love does not make the world go round but love is what makes a life worthwhile..

Will you go and make someone's life worthwhile?

Prayer Answered without realization

I am so grateful that I am a Christian, that I get to know my God and having Him knowing me back..
I had been in a really stressful situation lately and I was struggling really hard to find an answer and if possible, a solution.
So, I prayed and asked for a sign from God a couple of days ago. But the next day, I found that things turned out more complicated. And I was really in a dilemma.
Then today, I brought up the issue in prayer to God once again. The moment I asked
"why the issue turn out to be more complicated? Why did it happened the way it did??"

*whamp!*

I realized that the complication is actually a solution to my situation... I just hadn't been looking at it in a 360 angle.

Glory to God! He works in ways no one can understand. And I definately took few days to understand an answered prayer.

Focus, Beatrice, Focus..

I'm so tired of myself always being so unfocused.
Just when I thought that I'll be able to focus my mind and give my 100% into it, I side-tracked just because I stumbled into something else that interests me.
I'm kinda fed-up with this attitude of mine. Why can't I just concentrate on one thing and loose focus on everything else?
That's the new-age weakness: Multi-tasking!
Sigh~~~ I wish I could be a good girl and keep my focus on this one thing and not the 'interesting' stuff that just pops up from nowhere.